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Thursday, May 31, 2007 ``
12:21 AM

Well..

Min did suggest to shut down this site, but I didn't want that to happen. This site has followed both me and her through our relationship for almost 2 years, just a few days after we got together. Honestly, if you ask me right now, I dunno how things are between me and Min anymore. Is there any movement? Any progress? Probably I'm the one being distanced. I feel far away, afraid to talk to her now, afraid of a lot of things. I'm doing my best, I don't want to lose her again. Same time I don't want her to let me go so easily. Things are rigid, things are okay, I don't know what to say. It's like, I'm chatting with her online, and things are simply..normal-ish, but the truth is, there is a weird feeling that pierces my heart, and its disturbing me. Maybe all I need is to see her again, and then I will feel better. Truth be told, it's really lonely here, seeing all other couples, even when I have my friends around, they're simply...friends. Different from what you call a spouse or lover. I don't, and I can't love them as much as I love Min...Sure, once or twice a day, we have a couple of laughs. I'm missing out on a lot of things in Min's life..she's even gone through the top 8 of her school's singing competition, 8 out of 36 people..and she's one of them, and I had no clue. If I were back there, I would, but yeah..I made the choice already. So boo-hoo. I'm just a little lost and confused, hoping to be cheered on, understood, just by her. It doesn't really matter if not many others don't understand my efforts, or don't cheer me on, the one person that I want, is seemingly too occupied in her life. I guess she earned her space, and I did mine, with this as consequence. I'm not too comfortable with this much space...I have nothing to fill in. Its merely emptiness. Sigh, well, I lost 60 pieces of sketches today, and I have to hand it in a few hours, thats during class, and I've done 42 in the past 3 hours, now finishing up I guess...My final presentation should be on Saturday, and I'll be back in Brunei on the 12th. But just my luck that on the 18th, school would have started. And here I thought that I'd be able to enjoy that one day that I'm looking forward to so much since I left Brunei...You know, I look around and I see understanding when I watch my two friends (couples)...I felt as if I've lost that..after some time. I guess I have to understand and comply, without regrets and complains, that Min is unable to contact me..due to certain reasons. Pain pain pain. Hollow hollow hollow. I hope this gap fills in when I return. Now that I see it, 4 years is a long time...what if she can't come here? What if she has to go elsewhere? Oh my..I'm just too terrified now. Anyways, just had to let out my paranoia, I hope you won't be angry or anything Min...I hope you can understand. Well, good night. Back to work for me..Wish me luck. And congratulations to Min for making the final 8 for the singing contest once more.



{Vin}IntroSs~
Name:: Kevin Tan, Vin, Tan, Kev, Kebin Boi, Shin, Kevie-kun, etc etc..
D.O.B:: 23rd March 1990
Horoscope Sign:: Aries
Chinese Zodiac:: Horse
Email:: lone_redwolf76@hotmail.com
Location:: BSB
School:: Chung Hwa- SRS Datuk Simon Fung- Maktab Nasional- St.George's School
Hometown:: Kota Kinabalu?
Places I'd like to visit:: I'd love to go around the world if I have the chance.
Loves:: MinMin, Friends, Food, Drawing, Anime, Reading, Sleeping, Sarcasm, Chatting, Music, Writing, etc..
Fav. Colors:: Silver, Red, Grey, Black, Blue

 {Min}IntroSs~
Name:: Min, Call me RaiN~! xD
D.O.B:: November 01, 1989
Horoscop Sign:: ScorPio~!
Zodiac Sign:: Snake *psst psst* xP
Email:: dream_dynasty@Hotmail.Com, doublewish22@Yahoo.com
Location:: Brunei, Bandar Seri Begawan~
SchooL:: chms.
HomeTown:: Taiwan, Taipei~! (p/s: not kao hsiong xP)
Places I'd like to visit:: Japan, NewZealand, England, Canada, Italy, China~ Um... mostly Quiet and clean place =D
Loveees ♡~:: {most} like VinVin~! xD and my Lovely Peeps~~ Pamela, Manzy, Burt, Jessie, Aby, Irene~ and lalala~ xDD
Favv Colors:: Green Tea, Green~, White~, Yellow~, Orange~



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